雅虎專欄 – 假如我是MJ

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21/07/2009

雅虎專欄 – 假如我是MJ 余若薇

流行音樂巨星米高積遜(Michael Jackson)猝逝,世人頓時忙碌起來,重播他的經典MV、搞悼念活動、追查死因、出版傳記、透過傳媒窺探Neverland內裡乾坤、猜測會否出現爭產案……

記者爭相追問誰是MJ的粉絲。說句老實話,我欣賞這個人的性格多於他的才華。我從來不明白生為黑人的米高為何要拼命扮作白人。我寧看他在 “Thriller” MV裡黑人鬈髮的模樣,不看他在 “You are not alone” 時敞開胸膛,白得發光。我心中納悶:他不能接受自己,教旁人如何接受他?

追思會上,好友Brook shields流著淚說米高熱愛人與生命,那為何會不幸英年早逝?一個熱愛生命的人,既有天份,又享有盛名財富,應可快樂生活罷?

很難想像他的內心複雜世界。

不過假如我是MJ,即使全世界很多人愛我,但我最渴求到而永遠得不到的是慈父、妻子的關懷;雖然巡迴演唱會門票迅速售罄,但依然抵不上那些冷嘲熱諷;無論觀眾掌聲如何雷動,都蓋不過縈繞著耳邊的噓聲。越是有天份,對自己的要求越高,越是難快樂。我死後能帶走什麼?生前的榮辱、富貴、失落的童年都不再重要,隨我上路的一套衣服、生前最愛戴的白色手套、子女的玩具、子女給我的信、家庭照片、一副棺木,也是身外物,最令我無憾一生、無盡暖意的是女兒 Paris在我的追思會中簡單的兩句話﹕I just wanted to say, ever since I was born, daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine, and I just wanted to say I love you so much. (我只想說,自我出世以來,我爸爸是你們難以想像最好的爸爸。我只想說,我十分愛他。)

人死後,帶著被愛的感覺上路便足夠。

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